Jess found this picture yesterday of Baby Goo and I loved it. Gidge is so big now I forget how small she was when we first found her. I just love how she’s grown up into such a cool cat. Behold the cuteness!

This whole not knowing where we’re going thing is starting to wear me down. I know it’s only been a few weeks and this stuff usually takes months, but nothing solid has really materialized yet. The ILM job didn’t work out (secretly I’m actually glad, that job would have been horrible), and Zoic is still up in the air. They’re considering us for an intern position, which would be amazing. But the catch is that it’s 4 – 5 months unpaid. So it would be pretty tight financially, but if we worked hard and they liked us, then there would be a job at the end of that. It’s just not something I’m used to doing and kind of freaks me out. But still, it’s a foot in the door, and I’d take it in a heart beat. So cross your fingers.

I just hate misdirection. I’m such an ordered person. I like steps and lists. First you do this, then you do that, then that will lead to this. And I can’t do this right now. It scares me. Maybe I’m just being, well I don’t really know what I’m being, but I just feel like I’m stuck. I know what I’m supposed to do, I know where I’m supposed to go, I know who I’m supposed to be with, and now I’m just waiting for that green light. And so that’s what I have to do. Wait. And watch. And then wait some more. There’s a lesson here, I know it. I guess I’m just scared to learn it.

Patience, patience, patience.

A change is coming, I can feel it. I just wish it would hear up. I feel like writing music again. I haven’t felt that for almost 4 years. I’m just in a weird space now. Everything is so impermanent. The apartment I’ve lived in for almost 3 years is waiting to be packed up, and the real world is looming. At least I’ll have Jess, Roxy, and of course…the goo. When did I start to grow up? Have I even started? Maybe not, because I still like cartoons, and I still like toys. And I don’t want to loose that kid. I like him.

Anyway’s, this has kind been a fragmented post, so I’ll end it hear. But I’ll let you know how everything goes. Do you think God gets annoyed if you keep pestering him about getting a job over and over again? Let’s hope not. Talk to you all soon.

Oh! and go see ‘Borat’! Jess and I saw it Friday and it’s absolutely hilarious. It’s the largest grousing film released in less than 1,000 theaters ever. It made 31 mill on it’s opening weekend. That’s freakin’ ‘Pirates’ money man. So awesome. Anyway’s, go see it. I gave Jess and I a much needed laugh.